|32-37 weeks, moving from L to R, starting at the top.|
Being pregnant with a toddler is hard. My hats are off to all the mamas out there who are pregnant with multiple kiddos already. I know you grow and stretch gradually as God gives you things, but wow trying to imagine this pregnancy with more than one kiddo is hard.
Actually, let me retract that. Trying to imagine this 3rd trimester with more than one kiddo has been hard. The rest of the pregnancy I probably could have done with more than one kiddo. This third trimester has presented with all the typical 3rd trimester aches and pains, plus weird anxiety and insomnia, plus a lower back that has basically given up on me and refuses to work.
Let's all take note that the lower back is not the fault of this baby. Well, I mean, the babe's partially to blame in that if he weren't here, I'd have full use of my muscles and that darned grocery bag would not have presented so heavy. Yes, it was a grocery bag that did my back in. Admittedly, I usually grumble about my grocery baggers under-filling my reusable bags, thereby requiring me to still take home multiple plastic bags on each trip. Grumble grumble. Don't they get that my reusable bags are more awesome than that and can heft some serious weight? However, about 2 weeks ago (gosh probably 3 at this point), I had an over-zealous bagger who over-filled my reusable bags. Except I didn't catch this phenomenon until I was mid-lift with one of these grocery bags and felt sharp shooting pains all in my right lower back. I think it was a bag of all cans, disguised with some fluffy produce at the top.
Oh so deceiving and oh so cruel.
Let's just say I've pretty much been limping around ever since and in almost constant pain. Charlie and I have resorted to so much couch time that I really feel bad for him. Of course he's not feeling bad because it involves movies and ipad. :-P
The good news is, I'm still healthy, the baby is still doing well, and I'VE HIT 37 WEEKS AND AM ALLOWED TO GO INTO LABOR ANYTIME I WANT NOW!!!!
Okay maybe that's anytime the baby is ready now. Wish I could do anytime I wanted. :-)
Actually, I'm in pain so much of the time now that I feel like I constantly grumble. Not a realization I'm proud of. Let's see how many things I can be thankful for.
1. Baby is healthy.
2. Baby is not measuring extremely big right now (oh I beg of thee, let him stay that way and not jump up to 9 or 10lbs or something).
3. I can still move period. Even if it is slow. and limping. and painful. It's not bed rest.
4. My husband has a job that allows me to have stopped teaching at this point, which means I have less needed movement.
5. L&D bags are packed and thanks to some friends, I've gotten more of my house cleaned than I would have on my own. :-)
6. My son still gleefully volunteers kisses to my growing belly, and really does appear to be excited for baby brother's arrival. (Even if he retracts some of that joy when he sees how busy mommy becomes.)
7. At max I have another 5 weeks of this. Even if not an ounce of my being wants to think about that scenario, 5 weeks still technically better than having 10 weeks of this left. I should remind myself of that.
8. I have fresh Farmer's Market crowder peas cooking right now, and I am TOTALLY looking forward to eating them.
9. My mother has, in deference to my birthday request, agreed to bring me a large bag full of ready to steam (meaning washed and de-stemmed) Farmer's Market kale, once a week, for 6 weeks postpartum, just so that I can have my beloved steamed kale, brown rice and tangy tahini dressing while recovering with a newborn, without all the extra work of taking care of the kale myself. LOVE THAT MOM! :)
10. I get to hold sweet little baby boy in my arms sooner rather than later, and that my friends, despite the pain, makes my heart glad.
There. Now that I'm on a roll, there are lots of things I should be more thankful for. But so as not to bore you, I'll cease listing. That list was more for my personal benefit to remind myself that no matter how much pain I'm in, there are still things in life worth being thankful for.
Feel free to come any day now baby boy! We love you already and are eagerly awaiting your arrival. :-)